I'm sorry you have suffered the trauma of being raised by a narcissist. I understand the "cut her out of my life... but still..." I haven't yet been able to cut my mother out of my life.
Reducing our contact to texting is the best I can do.

Oh, please don't feel pressure to complete any challenges here! No shame! None whatsoever.
I will always want to hear your pov, but I will always respect your decision to write or not, as you see fit. I might always be dissapointed, but that's on me, not you.