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Is It Imposter Syndrome or am I Really a Fraud?
Realism versus pessimism.
My following on Medium is growing. I’m gathering a few fans. I credit self-promotion in Facebook groups, but I haven’t analyzed any statistics.
I don’t think it is growing fast enough. I never think anything is fast enough. I am the most impatient person I know.
I understand a couple of things need to happen before my Medium career really takes off. I need an email list and I need my own publication.
I could probably publish more, too. Recently, after digging deep and publishing a piece about my dad I’ve had to slow down. Not just my writing on Medium. I’ve had to slow down everything. I’ve needed to be gentle with myself. I’ve needed to climb out of the deep for a few days, stream TV shows, and eat raw cookie dough.
I read in a piece by August Birch that we, as writers, have a choice to be professional or authentic. I believe I can be both. I am my authentic self, always. I also take a professional approach to writing. Its a job as much as it is a passion. I write daily. Even on cookie dough days, I write. When I write, I publish. It is possible that I don’t always publish my best work (especially on cookie dough days). Yet, I grit my teeth, close my eyes, and hit publish.
